Stay With Me- O Death Where is Your Sting Pt. 3

"Why did you give up?"

"We could have made it through."

"Where did you go?"

These were the questions I had for Mom when she passed. I felt an enormous sense of guilt and responsibility for her death. I thought, "If only I had intervened!"
Anger.
Helplessness.
The temptation to despair.
These were my emotions.
Very much like the doctor in the above film, THE FOUNTAIN, I wanted to control fate ( or in my thoughts God's will) Yet I was not able.
Part of losing a close love one is this need to save them (if they are dying) or to some how return them from death. In the fountain, often the doctor's wife just wants him to stay with her.
I offer the above video as a meditation.